Same song.

Whenever I hear a song a recollection of different memories that surround that particular song comes to mind.
Whenever you hear that same song completely different memories fill your head.

So fly.

I took my vitamins and drank my soy milk.

It's always snowing.

Flargh. My heart hurts, in turn makes my head and stomach hurt as well.
I don't feel comfortable where I am right now, so I'm left all awkward and such.
Since when were they supposed to make you feel all this pain?
I guess that's why I sleep so much, at least in that time everything isn't reality.
I live in those dreams because they are easier to deal with.
Sometimes they do scare me, but I think that real life scares me more.
Those dreams are sometimes uncontrollable but I know they won't harm me.
Unlike real life everything seems to break me.

I don't know why I bother.

Ode to grade 10

Because in grade 10 all I listened to were slow jams and songs like this. Miss this song.

" why exactly did adam lambert lose idol exactly? Maybe it was his song choices, maybe it was his stage presence... Maybe it's Maybelline"
LOL oh jimmy fallon

my addiction

Because while at work the other day this song played i got excited, thought of this cover and haven't gotten it out of my mind since.

In reality.

One moment can change so much. It can make me feel so completely different. I felt strong but now I'm very much vulnerable. It just hurts.


because its a bittersweet feeling listening to this song.

Now more than ever I know that privacy settings are very necessary.

My mom is funny

I mean my mom is normally awesome as is, but once you get a little wine in her shes even more awesome!
Brother: "oh my goodness that Audi is amazing... mom wanna buy one for me for my birthday?"
Mom: "HAAAH... no"
Brother: "What a lucky... guy"
Mom: "What a lucky bastard"
Brother and I: "?!? MOM!"
*laughs*
Me: "Mean! Ma, what if he was really a bastard.. did you ever think about that?"
Mom: "Then I would be right"
Brother and I: "HAHAHAHA"
We later realized that it was the 6oz. of wine she drank at dinner.

Mother's day recap

Boy was I right when I said in my last blog that it was the making of a cute day! Nothing but a cute day:
- went to church
- straight to lola's
- cute leisure world staff
- party in lola's room
- big Ben :)
- bubble republic with Joslyn
- awesome nap
- best RAMSS view ever
- hysterical call to niki
- best news for my parents
- friend request accepted!
- cuteness from my bebe

Man that was truly an amazing day.


because this makes me even happier than I already am.

happy MOMMA's day!

Feels like the making of a cute day today. I gave my mum her mother day gift of stuff from lululemon because of her current obsession of yoga. After giving her the gift she opened up her new yoga mat and busted out the moves that she has been learning from her yoga session at work. My pops and I decided to cook breakfast, and now I should be getting ready for church which I will do right now.


Momma and her favourite child.

Damn it eat my cookie.

I curse you work for not scheduling me to work this week. I need to find things to keep me busy. I've been reading, yeah I have been reading, chillin', spending a lot of time on my roof, mostly all at the same time. A lot of things that I've got planned for this summer and I'm quite excited. I'm just hoping things will play out according to planned. Four months of sheer bliss.

42!


Because I find this acoustic version of this song basically amazing.

Surely I've contemplated, surely enough I've stopped myself.
No need to get deep because it will.... Stop.

I digress.

It has only been two days of summer and it has been eventful. Tomorrow should be eventful as well. I know I've like written this everywhere already but I miss my 'bebe' Caroline, today was quite sad. So much for conditioning. Now to figure out what to do with the rest of my summer.


Because Gabe-y Baby has a *kuwawa face*

I miss you.
I'll be back and dandy in 4 days :).

in the mean time...

because I have a ridiculous crush on BBMak

i'm done. i'll be back after the 27th.

ha ha he he ha ha ho

Because of Thursday night.

researcher's errors.

Type 1 error: Too ready and eager to accept that you are right and reject the null hypothesis.

Type 2 error: Too humble, thinking that you are wrong and accept the null hypothesis.

Are errors always followed this way?

You remember when you were a kid and your mom said don't touch that iron, it was just unplugged so its still hot. You'd look around for like 5 seconds and touch it anyways.

Yeah I just felt like saying that.


Love you Born Ruffians.

I don't go to your house and sit on your counter.

I usually like to mix the foods on my plate,
but on some occasions it tastes better to keep them apart.
If something were to touch or mix flavors it somewhat ruins the whole thing.
Mixing the sweet and savoury could be a taste so complimenting,
given the appropriateness of the dish.
Because you see there are culinary no no's.

I would relate my life to food.

I need some sort of epiphany, something to really knock into my head that I really need to get things done. The next couple of weeks are going to be a real big shit show. So I'm getting cracking after this blog. Finishing up these indicators before tomorrow, starting on my film assignments tomorrow so that I can free up my weekend to spend with some awesome chicks.

After all of this is done with I really want to go to New York City.


Because I was head over heels for her when I was 15, and this video just rekindled that love.

I don't like this feeling but I love this feeling at the same time. It kinda feels like I'm nervous and anxious, its like episodic. I used to get this feeling a lot but it hasn't made an appearance in my emotion log for a while. What bothers me about this feeling is that I don't know why I'm feeling this way. I'm trying to think of something in particular that would trigger me to randomly feel like this. I know it is not school because whenever I do think of school I feel more stress rather and nervous. I cannot think of a present situation or person that would actually cause me to get nervous. When I think of it I will probably blog about it later.


Anyways, I'm working on my Performance Indicators and its taking me a ridiculously long time. Everything is piling up and I need to get through everything quickly so that I have enough time to get a sufficient amount of studying done before exams actually come.


Because of caroline, and because I miss Kanye rapping.

Don't Meddle.

Skins is done and over with for the season. This season has come a long way for me. I was pretty much skeptical since it was going to be a completely new cast except for Effy and Panda. First episode was alright, it was a whole new vibe testing the waters a bit. The next two episode were pretty much fails to me. Third episode swept me off my feet, from there on out I was all on it.

Highlights?

Obviously Naomily and their love predicament,
the music,

Fitch fight,

PJ party,

Pandora and Thomas.

I'm bummed that the season is over and that I'm going to have to wait a whole year for the next season which I will be whole-heartedly anticipating.

Now, I need something new to blog about.

THE WEEKEND

Oh so let me tell about how excited I am for this weekend. Friday I'm not bringing my ass to school since I'm going to drive my dad to his friend's place and they are off to Chicago for a APO meeting of the officers or what not... Meaning I'm equipped with a car all weekend. No more asking if I can go out with the car or asking for rides. After work on Friday is big jam at frequency I believe. OH NO. Saturday, I work. But after that is going to be a STABLE mexican-pj-dance-study-slumber party. This is going to be BOMB, nothing but my best buds, some slutty dancing, PCD, kareoke, and whatever trouble we can get ourselves into. Seriously looking forward to this weekend... Just have to get through tomorrow and Thursday.

Yo cute tings.

Lately I have been less inspired to blog about things... I literally scratched my nose after that sentence trying to think of something to blog about.

Okay. I can talk about Skins here because apparently my friends are fed up with my obsession over this show. I literally died on Thursday, because of my overly enthusiastic anticipation for the Emily and Katie episode, and it did not fail what-so-ever. But I may have failed the essay that was due the next morning at 8 but whatever, that was an amazing episode. Things finally came together, and when I mean things I really mean Naomi and Emily finally made public that they are actually in love... So cute. I'm pretty bummed that next week is the season finale. Not a fan of the fact that they only have whopping lame 10 episodes a season so Skins better make this finale a good one.

I'm screwed.
Tuesday- simulation.
Wednesday- Britney Spears concert.
Thursday- Stats test.
Friday Sociology paper.

No time. No sleep.

“Blog like no1 is reading.” -Carles, 2009

So quiet

Bjork - It's Oh So Quiet
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because this post is just for this purpose

I think this has been the longest period between posts. Hmm 5 days? Its been a little mixture between being wrist deep in poopie at school I would say not really but clinicals like to speak otherwise and nothing to say I guess. So I received four tickets to the No Doubt concert today and I'm in debit with my mom once again. I always seem to do this with my mom. I'd ask to buy tickets for a concert with her credit card and promise her that I will pay her back. I would eventually pay her back slowly but surely. As of this afternoon I do believe I have $7.89 in my bank account so I'm going to have to stretch this out till my next pay.

So this weekend is I guess dedicated to B Haus and all its glory. But not really, I mean I'm going to be there everyday this weekend. So if you're looking for me you best bet is going to be to look for me at work.


Because its only fitting.

And my paychecks?

I got paid when? Thursday. Where is it now? In a bag of clothes and some tickets in my wallet. Hopefully my parents give me allowance this week, anyways I'm going to be brown bagging lunches to school for a while.

I'm thuper duper excited. Decadence in April. My brother gave me the okay to hang out with him and his friends if I happen to bump into him there, and even the 'I don't mind' if I try drugs with him. This morning was like a brother-sister bonding morning. We listened to music, he helped me get tickets for the No Doubt, Paramore concert and we got rowdy with the aerosol duster spray. It was one of the few times that I've talked to my brother without yelling and getting mad, it was cute.

Cockiness is a plus

Twitter, twitter. So damn simple but so damn addicting.

Another weeks episode of Skins has came and gone. It was cute, obviously 'cause it was about JJ and his new friendship with Emily. Now I wait for another week to pass by and build up anticipation until then.


because 'goddamn you half Japanese girls' and I'm excited for the Britney Spears concert

I'm seeing a general trend in my blog posts.

parental stand point

It has come to the point in my house where no one is really surprised by the things that I do at home. Thrusting the air while making awkward noises is nothing new. For example I ran downstairs since the upstairs washroom was occupied in need to poop so I screamed out 'I pooped in my unnawear' both my parents turned around looked at me for a second and continued in what they were doing, didn't phase them at all. My mom is pretty much a fan of what I do, she asks me things like 'what do you call that move?' or 'what was it that you were showing me to do?' That's how I know she will be supportive in whatever I choose to do. Yupp, my parents are awesome for the most part :)


because when your in love you know your in love.

Build me up

I'm pooped and I'm at UTM library right now. I decided to blog since I know there is no way that my brain is in the right state to attempt to retain anything I read. Nothing really epic to write right now. Maybe I'll dream something nice and I'll blog about it later.


because you build me up, and its cute.

cornichon, arachides.

Today's sociology class was quite interesting. It was some kind of thesis writing workshop, kinda went down like: you raise your hand up, state the subject and your attempt of a thesis. The teacher would look at you, say that what you just said really wasn't a thesis and ask you questions about you subject. She then directed you in a way that would get a thesis out of you. Today's class was also mandatory so I feel sorry for the suckers that didn't go to class today. Knowing me I usually don't participate in class discussions whatsoever but I felt the need to step up my game and actually see if my thesis was actually going in the right track. I just noticed that we ended up going through about a little more than 15 people's thesis.

On my way home I was pooped and just as I was starting to fall asleep I got a phone call from work asking me if I could come into work at 1 and end at 5 instead of having my on call shift. Those guys like know that I can't say no so I hurried my ass from the GO bus home to change and back to Square One to work. It was like reunited with my Bra, Julia. They have been purposely not scheduling us together due to our talkative and shit disrupting nature when we are together. Apparently we were more effective when the other one is not working. I think that its probably worse depriving us from each other since we talk that much more when we actually get a chance to see the other. Well they fucked up today and next week.

Its Friday, so no meat. I didn't eat all day, except for handfuls of cinnamon hearts I hid in my pocket during work and a bottle of water, until I finished my shift. So the Lenten season begins and I think I'm gonna go for no red meat, as I can only eat poultry and seafood, no pork, no beef, no four legged animals.

My tattoo is really itchy. I really want to scratch it or moisturize the shit out of it.

Ne-Yo - Can We Chill
Uploaded by UniversalMusicGroup

because this makes me wanna daaance

I like people who smile.

Skins. You kill me. Why can't people just understand that they belong together.

EBSCO. PROQUEST. Something... Can't I just find some relevant articles?

Flicker, a line

Hey its lent. Maybe I should give something up this year. I would say something drastic like internet or some form of computer but I'd literally die inside. I think I'll give up something like... being a bitch. Okay I lied. I need something to give up that is bad to indulge in but will benefit me by not having it. Perhaps something related to food. I can't really say candy because I don't eat much of it anyways. I should really give up being lazy, that would be a good one but it would be hard to figure if I'm tiring myself out. How about I give up being more lazy than I am now, but any work done from me would be improvement to the person I am right now. I can't think of the right thing to give up right now. I'll be back to edit.

It's me so I'll show love

I have a dressing on my arm right now, it doesn't hurt at the moment but it did hurt. I explain the pain to be obvious, as in it felt like someone was dragging a sharp object against the skin, scraping and scraping. I'm not going to lie it did hurt, like I had a firm grip on a large portion of my cardigan the whole time it was being done. My cousin was probably worse with her ridiculously sweaty hands of hers. Luckily the tattoo took less than ten minutes each, I can't say the same for my pops. He randomly decided to make an appointment to get a tattoo done at 6 and the tattoo was going to take two hours to do. I basically spent over 3 hours at New Tribe chillin'. Got some father and daughter experience done today.

Blood crusted and all

Brilliant fun.

As usual I should be doing some form of homework or studying, and as usual I'm not. Ever since I found out that my assignment is not really due tomorrow I've been slacking on everything. We'll see how tonight goes.

Reading week, recap.
Didn't do much but I actually worked more than one shift this week. Not a lot of reading went down, but I did get to catch up with some friends. From my list I think I was able to accomplish 3/7, hey at least I did something. I don't know where the days went. I was kind of hoping to get more work done, fail.

So I made a trip to the mall today with my mom and my brother in search of some sort of discrete looking spacers but came out with no luck. I guess all I can do is take the spacers out during clinical and put them back on after I get out of the hospital. I have yet to figure out a way to hide my soon to be tattoo during clinicals as well. I could always wear a long sleeved shirt under my scrubs, or buy a watch with a large strap so that it'll hide it. I'll figure it out. So out of all the people in my family that I have told about the tattoo my tita seems to be the only one that is against me getting this done. Its kind of odd, I would have thought that she'd be cool with me getting the tattoo, rather than my mom and dad.

I have to say this "Kittens! inspired by Kittens!", that kid is a genius.


because its Girlicious inspired hair tutorial!

Selling out Mondays

So I finally booked me and Steph's appointment at New Tribe. This should be fun... Cousin bonding and all. My dad is showing more and more interest in the tattoo that I'm getting. I know I didn't want him to come at first, but now I kind of do hope that he gets off work early to make it down for the appointment.

I don't care about clever, I don't care about funny

I'm trying to DO WORK at central library and I actually got a sufficient amount done so far. I've noticed that everyone that ends up sitting beside me leaves rather quickly. Maybe I smell... but I don't think that is why though because I just showered before I got here. Whatever I have to leave soon anyways.

Today's shift should be a little more interesting than usual since someone for Sherway will be closing because we are currently lacking in management. I like these night shifts, theres no one in the store to help so we find different things to keep us occupied. Yesterday, we, Raph and I, went into the resume bin and read a bunch of unedited resumes. Some people need to learn how to make these boring lives more flashy and interesting. For example, if you painted people's houses as a job, as a description you should put something like artistically applied paint into walls. I dunno I'm just saying if I were an employer and had to read boring shit like packed pickles into jars I'd be definitely turned off.

I should really keep a count on how people have sat beside me thus far, right now this is person number 5. The first lady that sat beside me was like eating some kinda noodles or something and was sitting there for about 10 minutes before she left, the second person was probably legally blind because every time she looked at her laptop she was but inches from the screen, she was actually there for more than half an hour. The third girl that sat beside me smelt like an overwhelming amount of vanilla and asked me to watch her bag for 10 minutes and left as soon as she came back. The fourth person was some guy and put his stuff on the desk, looked around and dipped. This fellow over here right here looks rather promising, and getting down into his homework. I should really get back to reading since I have shit to do at Square one before I start work.

Burnin' up

because its the veronicas singing jonas brothers

It's not me, it's you

So I have been listening to Lily Allen's new album for the past two hours. I've missed her music. I know that she's pretty much outspoken, but it makes me like her and her music even more. I'm pretty much torn between her and Katy Perry due to their beef over weight? I'm pretty sure theres some other crap that goes along with this but whatever. I think my loyalty has to go with my boy Lily and her instigating ways. Her interviews are some of the best shit I have ever heard in my life. Its the blunt crafty ways that she has with her lyrics that has got me, although this album hasn't grabbed me like Alright, Still, I do fancy it, still.

I like wheat thins

It would be pretty cool if something like a Made Coach was made readily available to anyone who wants to be something. But then again it would be lame if everyone could just up and decide that they wanted to be something completely different. The last time I thought about being made into something it was 'I want to be made into a slut'. That was somewhat interesting and did not go far, thankfully. I know I can be an ambitious person and says a lot of things like 'let's do this...' or 'so were going to....', I think that it would be nice to pursue the things in life that seem interesting.... you know? I'm just sayin'.

My internet sucks. This stupid thing keeps turning on and off, something to do with the amount of bandwidth I'm allowed to use.


because season 2 was the best, and my heart hurts and smiles when I watch this solo

Jawdropper

All of today's shift I was talking about how I want to cut my long hair, get something pierced, or how stoked I am to actually get a tattoo. After all that talk I became compulsive and bought a 14 gauge needle at my break, and as soon as I got home I put those bad boys in. It hurt, and it still kind of does right now. My parents are probably going to have a little fit about me doing this without asking permission first. Oh well...

Its DO WORK reading week. Somethings to be done:
- make appointments
- call ticketmaster
- uhmm... READ
- pannel presentation
- work out
- tune the uke & learn a song
- learn some girlicious choreo

People are dropping like flies at B haus. Everyone is leaving, its kinda sad.


because I love AJ Raphael songs, and this girl reminds me of Genesis.

Did you like that?

Today is officially the beginning of reading week. Kicked off the week catching up on shows I haven't been able to watch due to the hectic week I had. Watched a new episode of skins. Oh my goodness! As lame as that show has gotten since the last season, I did love that episode. Drugs, alcohol, scandal and girl on girl action.

Circa tonight. Wild Vines, crispy pata, palabok party... maybe some gin, and a pool.

Lol fail... I forgot what I ate yesterday.
Special K bar, Bottle of water, bowl of pancit.

Eat you up

So I've decided to list the things I eat daily, just to guilt trip myself into eating more health and better foods.
Breakfast- apple cinnamon oatmeal with 33% reduced sugar (i'm badass) with brown bread toast and pineapple cream cheese
Lunch- some lean cuisine business and an orange
Snack- tuna sandwich.
all this and like 3 bottles of water

Because it makes me want to learn how to dance to choreography, Kenny is in it and it has a little karaoke thing going on.

Ouch

My rips hurt when I breathe. The blisters on my toes feel like they are going to burst when I walk on them, even my but hurts when I go up the stairs. I basically feel bruised all over and I can't move a part of my body without something feeling sore. I guess this the outcome of 4 hours of straight basketball.

Did Work

Today was a good day I must say (sorry that totally rhymed). I finished class at around 11 and met up with 'DO WORK' Raeshel. Journeyed around Dundas Square area, caught up, ate some burritos, searched for stuff, and talked about people.... How I've missed her. On my way home I stopped by Square One to bid Rudith farewell from B Haus. Met Carla & friends at the terminal, and had an awkward moment. Went home, did nothing. Due to complications at Carla's house she came over to not do homework and had dinner with my family. Talked about tattoos, so I guess I'm going to get one in two weeks. Stayed in my room, talked, found my over a year old milk carton and journeyed on the roof and opened it up. Some gagging, yelling, laughing, and shivering went on. Made our way out of my house and went to pick up Calvin, and drove off to Shawn's. Talked to some randoms on Xbox 360, got cute on the sofa and watched Knocked Up. Called it a night and got dropped off at home.

I need that

I purchased a uke yesterday at Long and McQuade. I got home attempted to tune it when the string popped out, went back and exchanged it. This has been about a month and a half of going back to that store asking if they got on and now I finally have one. Now I have to get my uncle to tune that bad boy and serenade anyone and everyone around me. I should really learn how to play my guitar while I'm at it. I've been attempting different songs for the past couple of weeks and I can feel the callus growing on my fingertips, its gross.

So today I just realized that I have three midterms and an essay due next week. Lord save me.

Project ASAP

If you know me then you would know that I was bound to have a post dedicated to Girlicious sooner or later. Why prolong the wait. So here it is. Project ASAP. Due to my, lack for a better word, obsession with Girlicious I have decided to dedicate my Halloween to being a member. So theres two outfits that I was debating over, both in which require me to get really fit since they bare midriff. Both also are Nichole's outfits because she's obviously the best one and they are both from 'Like Me', because if i wore the 'Stupid Shit' outfit then I would just be sporting a naughty school girl outfit, and if I were Nichole from 'Baby Doll' then I would just look like I've got some whack ass hair. I haven't decided between the two but I still have what? 9 months to pick. Its probably going to be freezing cold in October which makes me lean towards the leather pants with a black bra look, but the booty shorts with suspenders is pretty scandalous. I'm just excited to buy a pair of those heavy duty boots.
This is gonna be fun, I hope this outfit won't get me in a lot of trouble. Come Halloween hopefully I will be able to pull this look off and do some stupid shit up on Church street.

Attractive Today

Lalala... Clinical was cancelled again.

Can reading week come already. And when I mean 'can reading week come already' I mean skip the two weeks from now until then. I was talking to the Garcia cousins this past weekend and we were talking about how this time last year we were all stoked to go to Flo-Rida for Ate Deanna's wedding. FL has long passed and I miss the hectic schedule, the warm weather, the chicharon, and our Band named Lacey. I hope there's some form of reunion this year.

I need some kind of outlet.

Hey Jessica,
Get a life.
I really should do something.

I am living with the concept of stress.

I have this essay you see, it is due in a little less than 12 hours. Its about conceptual definitions on a concept using scholarly sources. So, I am writing about this essay that I should be doing instead of actually writing the essay itself. My client is living with the concept of empowerment. According to McCarthy (2004) "empowerment is both process and an outcome arising from reciprocal interactions among people, linking autonomy with accountability, involving shared or transferred power, and achieving the ultimate goal of greater access to financial resources or intangible benefits such as knowledge and influence". That McCarthy bitch is one deep person. But seriously. I should finish this essay that is worth 20% of my final grade.

I miss my bathroom. More so the toilet in the bathroom.

I'm nervous and it isn't because of this paper. I'm a little nonchalant with the paper but I am feeling rather anxious or nervous I can't really distinguish whether its one or the other. Curse you wretched feelings.


because I don't know why I really like this cover.

Yeah yeah. (25 Facts via blogger)

1. I feel like a sell out for doing one of these.
2. Not so much of a sell out because its on blogger instead of FB.
3. I have the greatest family and friends.
4. I am very much indecisive about every decision I make.
5. My mom thinks I'm interesting, anyone who doesn't can suck it.
6. I have a love/hate relationship with B HAUS.
7. The only way to figure out something is wrong with me is that its actually quiet.
8. I am a former... everything.
9. One of my greatest accomplishments occurred when I was 11.
10. If I were to tell you a list of all my guilty pleasures that I have, you would have to clear your schedules for the day.
11. My nick name when I was small was KAKA, until my aunt put a stop to that and told my dad that it means shit in another language.
12. My present nick name is something that I've been called since high school.
13. I laugh at myself, by myself... a lot.
14. My best friend is so much like me, wave lengths and all, that its scary.
15. You don't get my humor, you wouldn't get my life.
16. I have splurges of obsessions, yesterday's was Kelly Clarkson, couple days before that BBMAK, today's? Haven't decided yet.
17. Spontaneous dance breaks are a must.
18. If you were my friend I would like to think you would have satisfaction guaranteed... Or your money back (IF you know what I mean).
19. I enjoy awkward people, conversations, situations.
20. I aspire to be a lot of things such as smart, cool, not lame.
21. Youtube will be the death of me.
22. Most incidences where I am a bitch, aren't necessarily intentional.
23. Most conversations with me are mostly of objective subjects.
24. I think slight under bites are cute.
25. I'm a wrong person wrong time kinda person.

My Life Would Suck Without You

How do you do Blogger?
This will be very much interesting starting a blog.I'll probably keep this post short and sweet. Seriously.


because my Blogger ID was going to be KellyClarksonFan100393